Why Do I Fall in Love Every Erotic Photoshoot?
BOYSLUT ISSUE 22: Erotic photoshoots, anal addictions, and COVID cuffing.
Photo credit: Kevin D. Hoover
I’d make a lousy porn star. I’d fall in love with everyone I shot with. It’s pretty ironic considering the opposite tends to occur whenever I have sex. I’m generally “over” that person after fucking, which is why I’ve become more discerning about having sex with people I could see myself dating. I also want to be careful not to lead anyone on—acting all cutesy and couply— only to have sex and be like, Nah, JK, thanks for the tight hole, though!
In short, I’m doing my best not to be a jackass.
But for a few reasons, whenever I have an erotic or intimate shoot with a fellow performer, I have strong feelings for them afterward. I know these feelings aren’t “genuine.” I’ve simply fallen victim to the moment.
The erotic shoots I do are sensual and intimate, rather than outright sexual. It’s three hours of kissing, touching, and groping, but no penetration. There’s also prolonged eye contact since you have to stare into each other’s irises passionately while the photographer takes his time to snap the photo. Eye contact does something to you. It stirs your insides. It makes you want babies, multiple fucking babies. So it makes sense I’d have overwhelming feelings for someone after a shoot. It just means I shouldn’t ever venture into porn.
This is just a teaser photo from my shoot with Kevin D. Hoover. More to come, including pics with the other model.
Can I just mention how fucking cool it was to work with Kevin? I’ve been following him and his work for many years. (Sadly, his old Instagram account recently got deleted, but he now has a new one.) I remember looking at the men in his photos and coveting them while also wanting to be like them—a common conundrum in the queer male community. Do I want to fuck him, want to be him, or am I jealous of him? The answer is always yes.
The fact that I had become one of Kevin’s models was validating AF. Your BOYSLUT is feeling good.
Now to some articles from the past week!
The hunger games of cuffing season is upon us. With freezing weather fast approaching, and COVID cases expected to rise during the winter, folks are looking to COVID cuff. People are scared that another lockdown will occur, and this time around, they don’t want to do it alone. But there’s a catch 22. The entire point of COVID cuffing is to limit exposure to new people to minimize your risk of acquiring the virus. However, in order to find that (un)special someone you want to cuff with, you need to go on dates with various people. This makes the search for a COVID mate particularly challenging.
Prepare Yourself for Pandemic Cuffing Season, the Highest Stakes Cuffing Season in History
This past week’s Sexplain It made me so fucking happy I cried. A (presumably) straight man tried anal play because of all my articles (i.e., bottom propaganda), and now he’s a self-proclaimed anal addict. He can’t cum unless he has something inside of him. My solution? MORE ANAL.
Sexplain It: I Got Obsessed With Butt Stuff, and Now I Can't Orgasm Without It
That’s all for now! Talk next week.
Your Boyslut,
Zachary Zane